on the mail lady. Ugh. I'm impatient!!! I have been waiting on my paycheck to arrive all week. I have a million errands to run, and of course, that takes dinero!!
So, several of you asked why I resigned from a job I loved. Adored. Well, here's my confession. I broke the rules. I did something stupid - made a mistake. And that led me to the resignation. Let's just chalk it up to school politics and big brother - who is always watching. I'm not perfect, have never claimed to be. But, I am also one of those people who always gets caught if I break the rules. I guess I should have known better. Wait, there is no guessing to it.
Remember those little cheerleaders I had trouble with??? Well, turns out they are pretty vindictive little girls. Honestly, I can't say I miss it. I am just keeping my fingers crossed that I will be able to teach again - because that is where my passion is. My heart and soul.
I think I have learned an important lesson in all of this. Well, I've learned a lot of lessons, actually. But one thing I know for sure - if ever given the opportunity to teach again, I will not be teaching in such a small school.
For those of you that don't live in tiny towns - let me paint a picture for you. You see, in a small town, even one where you only work and don't live, everybody knows every body's grandma's business. And if they don't know your business, they will make something up. And here I thought I was just a little old nobody. An outsider that just went to work, did my job and drove the hour home every day. Little did I know that I was working in a fish bowl.
My list of "sins" go all the way back to last year. They brought up things that I did - out in the open, never trying to hide anything, because I had nothing to hide. And petty stuff, like letting students use my personal refrigerator...yeah. That's a huge issue...right?? Well, anyway.
There were also some things on that list that weren't so petty - and I place the blame on myself, for the stupid, stupid things I did - a lapse in judgement. A crazed moment in my life. That is why I am where I am in my life right now.
I've totally rambled all over the place in this post...but maybe that sheds a little light on why I chose to leave a job that I once was head over heals in love with. Love is blind.